champagne from a paper cup by wolfnation

she can never walk a straight line

except sometimes in the morning

she wants to race herself against time

but i think that time's gonna win

It wasn’t that she wasn’t a free spirit.

Perhaps she was too much of one which was how she became the way she was. From a young age she knew that she was different. Growing up, she had gambled with Lady Luck more times than some would in their entire lifetime. Remembering the time she was seven and none the wiser, she had jumped out of their third story window proclaiming to Petty that she was a bird only to realise near metres to the ground that she could not in fact fly. By some freak chance, she not only survived the fall, she walked away without a scratch in sight.

Perhaps the moment that really changed everything was when Sev had told her she was special – that she was one of them. She became fearless, reckless even. It wasn’t until she got accepted to Hogwarts did she fully understand how and why this was all occurring. She wasn’t Wonder Woman, wasn’t invincible. She was the cat who had already foolishly gambled away at least six if not more of her nine lives by age eleven.

To add insult to injury, her sister abandoned her the moment she knew they would never be equals. It wasn’t okay, but she still had Sev, and that was enough for her to keep her innocence. The moment he called her a mudblood in fifth year, she grew up.

Cue the friendship of James a year later… Whenever she was with him, she felt pre-eleven again. Neither reckless nor guarded, but free. The moments she spent with him were the moments when she truly felt alive. She knew she could trust him with her life; they had come so far from when they had first begun, she knew he would never leave her. She was safe.

Placing her feet on his lap, she opened her book – the paragraphs of words and letters a blur as she continued to mull over things when her thoughts were interrupted as she felt him pat her leg signaling for her attention.

“Hey, I’m really glad we’re friends again.”

Thinking how much she wanted to stay in this moment forever, she looked up and smiled at him.

“Me too..”

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OK, i have a fair bit to say today.

First things first, I feel the need to explain this chapter and show a certain side to Lily... I personally feel, that James and Lily had to balance each other out - in spending time together she taught him how to grow, and he sort of breathed life into her one way or another by bringing back the freedom of her youth.

next thing, i'm pretty prepared to end it at the next chapter, i've got it all planned out in my head, but i recently have been watching a bunch of dvds like the notebook (bless that movie!) and have been hit(!) by tonnes of inspiration for more chapters, so i'm a bit not sure about where to go - should i end this with a bang? or write more. I'm just worried about this becoming something that just drags on for far too long, so please please please, let me know how we are all feeling about this.

last but not least, I have finally replied to all your comments yay! i consolidated some of them into one. apologies if i missed out on replying to some of you. i don't tend to reply in order *blush*